The Dark Depths of Depression
Darkness is an all encompassing cloud that can come when you least expect it. Sadness is a vacuum that can pull you to itself without warning.
Depression has a voice.
Sometimes it comes as a breathy whisper, sometimes an enveloping shout. But regardless of the way it shows itself, one thing is true; depression is a liar.
It tells you, you can’t. It tells you that you are not enough. That you’ll never make it through. That whatever you are facing is insurmountable and unchangeable. Depression tells you that you are better off not trying or worse; giving up completely.
Jesus warns us ahead of time that life will have challenges, but He has made us over-comers through Him. In John 16:33 He says, “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
I have a bit of a confession. Depression is something I used to not believe was real. I thought it was made up. That somehow the depression sufferer was weaker or just couldn’t get a grip.
Until I experienced it in a very real way and realized how wrong I had been for so long.
Battling depression on and off for years while living with debilitating chronic health conditions probably taught me the most about leaning on Jesus for my strength. I have had to work very hard to make a conscious decision every single morning to choose life over death (Deuteronomy 30:15-20).
Almost every morning I wake up, the temptation to sink into depression is lurking. Waiting to lie to me. Waiting to tell me I am ineffective, that nothing is going to change, that I might as well just give up and stay in bed. And many days the temptation to give in to despair is more than I can almost bear. BUT GOD shows up in those moments and whispers HIS truth in my ear and that my friends, is the only word worth listening to.
Once I surrender my life over to Him and make a choice to choose life and step forward towards His promises for my life, things change. When I seek Jesus and just take whatever step He equips me to be able to take that particular day, the depression no longer has a space. I have to take it one day at a time while I allow God to lead me.
It says in Psalm 34:17 that, “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.” THAT is truth.
Depression whispers your weak.
God shouts you are strong as a cedar in Lebanon.
Depression says never. God says always.
Depression says destruction. God brings deliverance.
Depression is hopelessness. God is the only true hope.
Depression locks you in pain. God calls you out to purpose.
Depression tells you your trapped and enslaved. God tells you, you are free.
My prayer is those of you who are struggling with depression the way I have battled it, will find themselves going to the only true answer: Jesus. There is no pill, no activity, no amount of sleep that will restore your hope and purpose like Jesus and He will do it in an instant, if you just lay it down at his feet and take the baby steps He is calling you to.
As simple as it may seem, taking one day, one minute, one moment at a time while pursuing Jesus with everything you have, is the most effective way I have found to lessen the grip of depression over your life.
I will spend the rest of my life putting one foot in front of the other towards what He has for me regardless of the threats and bullying from the enemy. Because depression just simply, is not what Jesus came to bring us.
“But you, LORD, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high.” -Psalm 3:3
Depression is a liar. Jesus is the truth.
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