mx more :: part two


My voice is fading, my song has been far from me…distant like a cold symphony looking for my melody and then it hit me.

Listen I know I’m not good at feeling, emotions I hide like a great divide. Old habits are creeping, but it won’t get to me or tempt me, cause the new me that’s alive and rising like a spiritual revival my soul a chapel…I should be dead but I’m alive.

“God, my shepherd!

I don’t need a thing.

You have bedded me down in lush meadows,

you find me quiet pools to drink from.

True to your word,

you let me catch my breath

and send me in the right direction. -psalms 23 MSG

Listen I know I move too fast and forget to set back and release cause stress is a deadly disease… I know where I stand, I’m different, I get it, I know most don’t see it, don’t accept it cause they wanna change it like I’m made of this world, supposed to be like you, blend in and stay silent but you’re missing it cause I was a seed planted to break this silence, annoying isn’t she? Get use to it cause I won’t stop, atleast I own me cause all this negativity won’t kill me.

I know I’ve got blood on these claws called flaws cause I know I’m not perfect, grace and forgiveness is a beautiful thing thats freeing & not conflicting, keeps me breathing, no longer suffocating. Cause the more you admit that you’re wrong and at fault there’s a love that went out there that died to break you free.

Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me. -psalms 23 NIV

Faith that grows that never goes, the image of You I don’t wanna lose even when I go home, and the music goes up, the lights go down I hope that I’m still that canvas reflecting You, my story inside not to hide and I know the walls inside want to eat me alive but, I gotta fight cause there’s more to life than losing sight of what’s right.

When I feel You this zombie in me comes alive it’s a fire I can’t hide. When I thought the music in me died.

“God gave you them shoes to fit you
So put ‘em on and wear ‘em
Be yourself, man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Never let no one tell you you ain’t beautiful.” -Eminem

-Emily muse